I was going through my notes yesterday and came across these raw words of mine typed out a few weeks ago. Fun fact: When my mind gets loud + my heart heavy I write notes to God. No formalities. I just let the pen glide or the fingers type across the keyboard and lay it all bare. So here I am inviting you into my notes with the hope + expectation that you’re spurred on. I have this feeling you too want what I want, have been where I was and desire to be moving forward + closer to Jesus with every breath you take.
What I want:
I want to know you more, Lord. Not the intellectual kinda know but the deep-down-in-my-soul-I-feel-restless-for-You kind of knowing. I want to be fully satisfied in You alone. I want to enjoy YOU MORE and hate sin more. I want to wake up first thing in the morning and my thoughts be Yours and when my head hits the pillow in the evening…those moments are reserved for You too. I want to walk away from my time with You changed a bit more each day. I want to invite You into all the moments of my day and not have You boxed into a “chair time.”
I want it to be easy to see that I have been with You. For the good of others and all the Glory is Yours.
Where I have been:
And yet despite all this holy wanting there’s a constant pulling under. A move against the current of this world that can leave one feeling alone and tired. Before I know it I have been caught up in it. Distracted. Forgetful. Self-serving. Heart + mind cluttered with worldly things. My true citizenship forgotten. But God. You beckon me from this.
I cry out in response to the Garden of Eden question that you still ask “where are you?” The light breaks through and suddenly I am awake. Pulling away from the world and running towards You.
How I move forward:
I draw near to you alone Lord. My heart is wide open ready to be searched fully. Confessing that which does not belong there. Repenting over the sin and imagining the heartbreak and feeling the weight of it all. Your grace abounds and I delight in your Presence and pursuit of me. I meditate on your WORD inviting your promised Spirit to do the holy work with my all in heart. I am still and quiet. Ready to receive + move as a Child of God + Citizen of Heaven. While the work in my heart here doesn't end on this side of eternity your promises compel me to keep coming back to Jesus. And so I will. With praise on my lips + holy expectation in my heart. I am Yours.
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My hope is you feel a little less alone + a whole lot spurred on for MORE time with Jesus. Because it is our absolute delight. AMEN?!
Let’s end with this prayer by A.W. Tozer:
O God, quicken to life every power within me, that I may lay hold on eternal things. Open my eyes that I may see; give me acute spiritual perception; enable me to taste Thee and know that Thou art good. Make heaven more real to me than any earthly thing has ever been.
Amen.
EnJOY a day + everyday thereafter close to Jesus!
57 comments
Apr 21, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well God it’s nobody again we really think we went into with this freaky stuff and no me, running talking all day think you see from a distance ,your car not my scar and not my responsibility never did stop not me on real bad joke we don’t even need to know each other an let’s talk some more guess what y’all y’all didn’t get in trouble so move on this ain’t crack
Apr 17, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well God it’s me again sick as hell,best joke work can’t keep a job ,and raging sex maniac wrong hole to the unemployment,lose with ted Bundy and Jeffery Durham that would do about anything being unnatural and unseen ,goal zero watching out for the wicked
Apr 03, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well God it’s nobody again,in need of an somebody else to,but I hope they stop talking to this old man about this stuff because we are full of it
Mar 31, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
God it’s nobody again with so much going on without me involved are invited,just trying to find me alone instead of the next mistake,call trouble easy to get in hard to get out of.in need of prayer prey for me thanks
Mar 25, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Hopefully next go around I can mess my self around,6 billion people and what’s one when I kept saying I was nobody ,privacy,privacy,and six billion peivacy
Mar 05, 2025 • Posted by Evan
dear God two years ago in october i got my florida state id but stupid things have happened they denied my voting rights for being autistic when they shouldn’t have please correct their mistakes and make them undeny my rights to vote for being autistic and threaten to punish them if they don’t thank you amen.
Mar 04, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
How about y’all just don’t do nothing at all,y’all not going to waste it selling a kilo are opening up your own club,went away a long ways from just getting fired and check stop
Feb 28, 2025 • Posted by NICKRUSSOLILLO
DONT YOU LET HIM IN TO HEAVEN LET HIM SAFER AND LET HIM THINK ABOUT IT
FOR HE DID
Feb 28, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
I guess I just couldn’t do,it really didn’t matter that the stranger whaten asking to be barther, sitting at home,me the adult that don’t know where I don’t even have to go too,what’s one out of billions , Peace love and brain flue
Feb 26, 2025 • Posted by Evan
dear God when i first joined the special needs bowling leauge in hendersonville and first knew the Cotters a constant get together with them begun my parents attached their personalities to them and they mentioned them too much and Cheryl compared me to Larry so i would like for you to completely put an end to it so i don’t go back to constantly hanging out with them thank you and get Cheryl to perminantely stop asking Larry related questions about me.
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