A Letter to God

A Letter to God

I was going through my notes yesterday and came across these raw words of mine typed out a few weeks ago. Fun fact: When my mind gets loud + my heart heavy I write notes to God. No formalities. I just let the pen glide or the fingers type across the keyboard and lay it all bare. So here I am inviting you into my notes with the hope + expectation that you’re spurred on. I have this feeling you too want what I want, have been where I was and desire to be moving forward + closer to Jesus with every breath you take.

What I want: 

I want to know you more, Lord. Not the intellectual kinda know but the deep-down-in-my-soul-I-feel-restless-for-You kind of knowing. I want to be fully satisfied in You alone. I want to enjoy YOU MORE and hate sin more. I want to wake up first thing in the morning and my thoughts be Yours and when my head hits the pillow in the evening…those moments are reserved for You too. I want to walk away from my time with You changed a bit more each day. I want to invite You into all the moments of my day and not have You boxed into a “chair time.”

I want it to be easy to see that I have been with You. For the good of others and all the Glory is Yours.

Where I have been:

And yet despite all this holy wanting there’s a constant pulling under. A move against the current of this world that can leave one feeling alone and tired. Before I know it I have been caught up in it. Distracted. Forgetful. Self-serving. Heart + mind cluttered with worldly things. My true citizenship forgotten. But God. You beckon me from this. 

I cry out in response to the Garden of Eden question that you still ask  “where are you?” The light breaks through and suddenly I am awake.  Pulling away from the world and running towards You.

How I move forward:

I draw near to you alone Lord. My heart is wide open ready to be searched fully. Confessing that which does not belong there. Repenting over the sin and imagining the heartbreak and feeling the weight of it all. Your grace abounds and I delight in your Presence and pursuit of me.  I meditate on your WORD inviting your promised Spirit to do the holy work with my all in heart. I am still and quiet. Ready to receive + move as a Child of God + Citizen of Heaven. While the work in my heart here doesn't end on this side of eternity your promises compel me to keep coming back to Jesus. And so I will. With praise on my lips + holy expectation in my heart. I am Yours.

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My hope is you feel a little less alone + a whole lot spurred on for MORE time with Jesus. Because it is our absolute delight. AMEN?!

Let’s end with this prayer by A.W. Tozer:

O God, quicken to life every power within me, that I may lay hold on eternal things. Open my eyes that I may see; give me acute spiritual perception; enable me to taste Thee and know that Thou art good. Make heaven more real to me than any earthly thing has ever been.

Amen.

EnJOY a day + everyday thereafter close to Jesus!

47 comments

Feb 16, 2025 • Posted by Nobody

Well God it’s nobody again not asking anybody there name are number and wouldn’t believe we want even talk on the phone, watching TV

Feb 14, 2025 • Posted by Nobody

Its nobody again God just a talking fool a million words are useless,never back home,can’t keep the same job and they going to talk and be messy ,what is a old fella to do,

Feb 13, 2025 • Posted by Nobody

Rent , mortgage against I really don’t care if I never pay that and never go home talking about I’m against my own debt selection that I might not want to pay today , tomorrow,are never

Feb 13, 2025 • Posted by Nobody

Well God it’s nobody one more time what’s the odds 1 to 50 minus 16 years,king Solomon wise man and the fool have the same faith I’m most definitely the fool just chasing the wind talking sight seeing and really shouldn’t listen when the blames on me,but both only got one thing in come and that’s to enjoy life

Feb 13, 2025 • Posted by Nobody

Well God it’s nobody again,I should be quite,politicitcimg about work for what,first fired and last person hired,I’m just the dummy that want be quite while alone,not really one long song when nobody’s listening,vh1 are hanging vin the street they ain’t seen it yet

Feb 13, 2025 • Posted by maya

Daily kairos.com pleased deleted my email and posted.

Jan 27, 2025 • Posted by Nalayah Patton

Dear God I apologize for all of my sins please give me all good dreams sorry I was crying over the small bug like a crybaby if that was my punishment I aprreate it bc I deserve so I’m gonna try to do better bc I don’t like the punishments but I have to except the consequences heavenly father I love you so much goodnight bless me and my family with a good night can you tell my grandpa I love him I miss him and goodnight good night to you as well.

Jan 14, 2025 • Posted by Nobody

Well God it’s nobody again ,I need of prayer and involved in somebody else crime these days,papa old best suggestions I can give is pick and chose your crime wisely,it’s the same life sentence white collar crime would be better,

Dec 16, 2024 • Posted by Nobody

God it’s nobody one more time,Ted Bundy and Jeffery Durham without the French benefits a job to 67 a good raise every year,and zero down home loan ,and car loan without the interest rate, discount on lighting and water and one hell of a 401 k plan,living good with no complaints

Dec 16, 2024 • Posted by Nobody

God it’s nobody again,while the rest of the world struggles with rent and mortgage,the high unemployment rate ,and like me anyway day just another hobo,work not guarantee the next job hard to get ,20 to 30 years for one and all your life for the other,and I’m just another person that didn’t have welfare,voucher to pay the rent and food stamps,don’t keep me guessing

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