I was going through my notes yesterday and came across these raw words of mine typed out a few weeks ago. Fun fact: When my mind gets loud + my heart heavy I write notes to God. No formalities. I just let the pen glide or the fingers type across the keyboard and lay it all bare. So here I am inviting you into my notes with the hope + expectation that you’re spurred on. I have this feeling you too want what I want, have been where I was and desire to be moving forward + closer to Jesus with every breath you take.
What I want:
I want to know you more, Lord. Not the intellectual kinda know but the deep-down-in-my-soul-I-feel-restless-for-You kind of knowing. I want to be fully satisfied in You alone. I want to enjoy YOU MORE and hate sin more. I want to wake up first thing in the morning and my thoughts be Yours and when my head hits the pillow in the evening…those moments are reserved for You too. I want to walk away from my time with You changed a bit more each day. I want to invite You into all the moments of my day and not have You boxed into a “chair time.”
I want it to be easy to see that I have been with You. For the good of others and all the Glory is Yours.
Where I have been:
And yet despite all this holy wanting there’s a constant pulling under. A move against the current of this world that can leave one feeling alone and tired. Before I know it I have been caught up in it. Distracted. Forgetful. Self-serving. Heart + mind cluttered with worldly things. My true citizenship forgotten. But God. You beckon me from this.
I cry out in response to the Garden of Eden question that you still ask “where are you?” The light breaks through and suddenly I am awake. Pulling away from the world and running towards You.
How I move forward:
I draw near to you alone Lord. My heart is wide open ready to be searched fully. Confessing that which does not belong there. Repenting over the sin and imagining the heartbreak and feeling the weight of it all. Your grace abounds and I delight in your Presence and pursuit of me. I meditate on your WORD inviting your promised Spirit to do the holy work with my all in heart. I am still and quiet. Ready to receive + move as a Child of God + Citizen of Heaven. While the work in my heart here doesn't end on this side of eternity your promises compel me to keep coming back to Jesus. And so I will. With praise on my lips + holy expectation in my heart. I am Yours.
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My hope is you feel a little less alone + a whole lot spurred on for MORE time with Jesus. Because it is our absolute delight. AMEN?!
Let’s end with this prayer by A.W. Tozer:
O God, quicken to life every power within me, that I may lay hold on eternal things. Open my eyes that I may see; give me acute spiritual perception; enable me to taste Thee and know that Thou art good. Make heaven more real to me than any earthly thing has ever been.
Amen.
EnJOY a day + everyday thereafter close to Jesus!
71 comments
Jul 31, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
The story of the life time ,black don’t matter so don’t worry yourself and new it from the beginning,trapped in your skin and that’s the real sin that went crime
Jul 25, 2025 • Posted by Maddox Ruperto
I come to you with a humble heart and a simple request. I long for the joy and excitement of a water balloon fight, but somewhere along the way, I have lost that childlike fun. I pray that you will bring it back into my life.
In your wisdom and love, you created water balloons for us to enjoy. They bring laughter, camaraderie, and pure joy. Help me to see them through your eyes once again and to embrace the fun they bring.
Guide me to a place of lightheartedness, where worry and stress cannot take hold. Give me the courage to let go and be silly, to splash and throw water with abandon. Help me to be fully present in the moment, cherishing the memories made with loved ones.
Thank you for the little things in life that remind us of your goodness and grace. May this water balloon fight reignite my spirit and fill my heart with joy and gratitude for your blessings.
I trust in your power to bring back my fun of water balloon fights. Create a female to fell in love with me. And create a female, who would fell in love with me forever.
Jul 22, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well God they think I’m dumb ,first I was just working in Houston at job I couldn’t keep people decided to run up there but they didn’t fire me right away,then I change job then everybody ran to where I don’t work at ,now everything unnatural and no home alone with strangers problems wonder if the stranger was going keep roof over y’all head oh they don’t have to worry about getting fired like me and still run home to there people and there house that we don’t go too
Jul 15, 2025 • Posted by ryan theresa tracy
dear father god my name is ryan i’m going to be 40 in august listen my fiance husein keeps having really bad seizure’s he was born with that disorder he’s been telling me whenever he has some really bad seizures he becomes unresponsive i was wondering if you could ask the gaurdian angels to watch over him
Jun 12, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well it’s nobody again in need of prayer,I know Joyce Myers says yesterday is good and gone,and you got to find something you enjoying doing today,good hobbies peace,love,and happiness and never tell anyone your problems, I’m in need of prayer
Jun 06, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Now look at the next fool ,no blame no shame and for got to move on to next day everything like smoking crack it’s alright until I get caught ,no complaints
Jun 06, 2025 • Posted by Elijah smith
One thing I regret in life ,is talking and lying if I never would sit down a went to talking this is what I wouldn’t be in ,if I wouldn’t lied if wouldn’t talked this is exactly where I wouldn’t been at.
May 26, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well God it’s nobody again,just because of my brain the next person started acting like they foney sexapade had something to do with y’all since they wanted me to know everything so on the next person didn’t tell thats all it was.first cord hanging out my rear end now unnatural ,and the world think they slick as hell.did they not ever want there self not think of yall
May 26, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well God it’s nobody again,just because of my brain the next person started acting like they foney sexapade had something to do with y’all since they wanted me to know everything so on the next person didn’t tell thats all it was
May 21, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well God it’s nobody again ,the world has proven to me again I can’t fit with crooks,longest story ever the popo ain’t got me what I’m talking about are the pope whatever suits the next person
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