I was going through my notes yesterday and came across these raw words of mine typed out a few weeks ago. Fun fact: When my mind gets loud + my heart heavy I write notes to God. No formalities. I just let the pen glide or the fingers type across the keyboard and lay it all bare. So here I am inviting you into my notes with the hope + expectation that you’re spurred on. I have this feeling you too want what I want, have been where I was and desire to be moving forward + closer to Jesus with every breath you take.
What I want:
I want to know you more, Lord. Not the intellectual kinda know but the deep-down-in-my-soul-I-feel-restless-for-You kind of knowing. I want to be fully satisfied in You alone. I want to enjoy YOU MORE and hate sin more. I want to wake up first thing in the morning and my thoughts be Yours and when my head hits the pillow in the evening…those moments are reserved for You too. I want to walk away from my time with You changed a bit more each day. I want to invite You into all the moments of my day and not have You boxed into a “chair time.”
I want it to be easy to see that I have been with You. For the good of others and all the Glory is Yours.
Where I have been:
And yet despite all this holy wanting there’s a constant pulling under. A move against the current of this world that can leave one feeling alone and tired. Before I know it I have been caught up in it. Distracted. Forgetful. Self-serving. Heart + mind cluttered with worldly things. My true citizenship forgotten. But God. You beckon me from this.
I cry out in response to the Garden of Eden question that you still ask “where are you?” The light breaks through and suddenly I am awake. Pulling away from the world and running towards You.
How I move forward:
I draw near to you alone Lord. My heart is wide open ready to be searched fully. Confessing that which does not belong there. Repenting over the sin and imagining the heartbreak and feeling the weight of it all. Your grace abounds and I delight in your Presence and pursuit of me. I meditate on your WORD inviting your promised Spirit to do the holy work with my all in heart. I am still and quiet. Ready to receive + move as a Child of God + Citizen of Heaven. While the work in my heart here doesn't end on this side of eternity your promises compel me to keep coming back to Jesus. And so I will. With praise on my lips + holy expectation in my heart. I am Yours.
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My hope is you feel a little less alone + a whole lot spurred on for MORE time with Jesus. Because it is our absolute delight. AMEN?!
Let’s end with this prayer by A.W. Tozer:
O God, quicken to life every power within me, that I may lay hold on eternal things. Open my eyes that I may see; give me acute spiritual perception; enable me to taste Thee and know that Thou art good. Make heaven more real to me than any earthly thing has ever been.
Amen.
EnJOY a day + everyday thereafter close to Jesus!
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Dec 05, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
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Dec 02, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
It’s not organized crime trying to make a dollar and the streets moving to fast,it’s not the young person I haven’t worked anywhere anyways ain’t worked long enough to retire and maybe I need to go to school it’s old people
Dec 02, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
See what y’all ain’t stopping,is a bunch of old folks that know how to do everything thing wrong ,it’s not a bunch of drunk as boys hanging out not old enough to work it’s bunch of old folks it’s not the boys that join the gang called deuce and quarter this is non thinking old people
Dec 02, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Maybe tomorrow somebody else going to college to be a doctor , lawyer,nurse,teacher, mechanic,maybe tomorrow. I be 18 and 19 off to the military,college,are getting there first not they job having fun going to the movies, bowling instead of us old people talking and all these mistakes and problems,
Dec 02, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
What y’all been doing for the last thrity years past one year agothat went into another year to long,and for the sixteen years sitting at home listening to hood maybe I shouldn’t said a word now since we all stink like hell, college days gone ,off to the military,just a bunch of grown people with a lot of problems,let’s talk all day and night,and we never alright but we at home that the nobody as nigga don’t pay for so I guess we can forget him
Dec 02, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Look at 51 no where around trying to think about not me what they going to be doing for the rest of there own life ,and so much other people trouble and it’s like I don’t even exist in this world and long ways just from talking all day a very long ways from a bunch of useless words.
Dec 02, 2025 • Posted by Nobody
Well a million words ain’t going to change a thing,I mainly don’t mean anything cause I’m black ,that’s why they join in that’s why y’all not getting in trouble and that’s the reason they don’t care what y’all do so forget one me that’s not going to be around you instead one to many yall
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